No doubts that I’m completely and utterly in love with this boy. I’ve never stopped loving him from that day we broke up two years ago. He’s truly amazing. I can see myself marrying him in the future. In the near future. <3

Then the whole thing is that ismael breaks up with me a week after relations.. like wtf. what did i do? Apparently I’m just a horrible fucking girlfriend because no one ever wants to stay with me or even want me. Honestly. Why even fucking try anymore?

I’m such a fuck up. and I hate myself.

The whole thing is that I hate myself so much. I try and be nice to people, but I think I come off too strong and look like a weirdo. I’m just not gonna have any friends this year and graduate and move to Antarctica and live with snow men and freeze to death. I’m so depressed and stressed out that that’s the worst I can think of right now. But really I hate being me. I wish I could change and be cool or some shit. I dunnno. really just feel like cutting right now. fuck.

I’m really tempted to cut right now. Really. Really. Fucking tempted. Shit.

So, Me and Ismael broke up. Figures. Nothing good ever stays with me. Whatever. I knew it would be too good to be true.

I always try to make people happy. In all reality. I’d be happy if I were in Syracuse. So for all the fuckers from Greene county that are on here, bye whores. Fuck you all. I don’t give a fuck anymore. Bye.

I’ve been at my dad’s house. For a month. A month without cutting. And I really really really really want to. That arm hurts alot too. Like I can feel all the blood rushing there. Fuck. I need it at this point. Fuck man. Shit. I’m going too. I’m too sad for this shit.